Sunday, October 31, 2010

I've lost myself

Dunno since from which day,I lost my smile~
Totally,I didn't realize it~
But....tat day when I talk with my buddhist friends,
They just tell me~

Yes!!!that time I just think back~
Why??why??why??
In my friend's eye,they say I'm the one who are always smile~~~

Recently,many things keep stuck in my brain~~~~
I'm tired!!!I'm cried!!!
Almost every night I feel hard 2 asleep~
I keep think back all the things~
It is unbelieveable~I keep asking myself:"Why???"

I totally depressed...totally sad....totally dissapointed!!!
The most important is.....I have LOST MYSELF~~~
This is what my friends tell me~~~
They want me be more happy,be more tough!!

They want me 4gt everything that was happened~
They want me accept the real society~
They want me to be more independent~

Thanks a lot to them!!!!
After meet them,they teach me a lot~
They ask me be calm down in every aspect~

What I face I really can't accept it~
Why??I also dunno~~~
They ask me dun believe people with whole heart~
I say it's hard 4 me~~~but.....I'll try my best!!!

They want me to be neutral~
Dun hate any1~
I must be thanks 4 those who hurt me~
I must be thanks 4 those who make me cried~
I must be thanks 4 those who make me fall~
Cause all of these is force me 2 grow up!!!

I really appreaciate cause I can meet all of you in my life~
Really thanks to all of you,my buddhist friends~~~
You all make me understand what I faced just a part of my life~
Compare with all of you,my problem just a small matter~
I really shock why all of you still can be so tough 4 facing all the problems~
"I need time 2 grow up~"

But....I hopes I can find back the original me~
The 1 who always smile.......
I really hopes I can find back my smile~
I also dun wish I will pass my life with my tears~
I must keep my tears because God say "Woman's Tears Are Valueble as Diamond~"
I believe I can!!
I believe I can handle all the things well~
Good luck + Gambateh!!!

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